I am going to be careful. . . But You do what You want to do!

 

The difference between having and claiming comes after longing and before longing had-better-not-be wishing. I do not want to relinquish the possibility of having You as friend, and yet while we both acknowledge friendship, what we really have attained is new and superficial, thus easily canceled. I for one had the-better merely come upon You when that would not at all look like some contrivance just to see You to further a somewhat acquaintance beyond this availing roughness and insufficiency.

The YuleTide advenes. I hope You will not mind my making a timely card for You Yours this season; I see nil wrong with this, and would appreciate Your telling me if this is not OK. No 'tis not what I want for You to 'let me get the hint' of silence, as I-- always meaning-well-- cannot read Your mind's potential though hidden discomforts.

In all then, I would like to have conversations of greater depth than hello with You in the way we are doing, too close the temptation for me to try to start some kibbitz just for the sake of going from this just-hello-ing with some facial gestures of joy to a time when I know what You are, that is what your interests are, and how if any way I can make a fit into these 'hot button matters' in Your world.

This medium deliberately will get least circulation. You simply do not need to know just how much You interest me. Seldom but with-me-desirably do women initiate warmth; I think You already sense just how scarred I am from buffets in a long gauntlet-beating of women who, doing the usual in Love, smile awhile, then spurn violently (and with TheLaw bringing charges of trespass for Ye). I am going to be careful. . . But You do what You want to do!